i felt empty today, like hollow-ram a tree trunk through my gut and i could almost promise you that i wouldnt feel a thing. but its ok, tommorrow will be better, im sure of it. i feel like a dead ghoul swimming in hades' river of death, staring into nothing, feeling nothing. i love it.

today marked the last day of work and as much as i liked cutting out ads from newspapers, lugging around bags of magazines, sorting out ridiculous amounts of mail and getting everyone's lunch but my own,
i love not working.

i love the smell of dough rolling in.

im having one of my whiny days. one of those days when there's absolutely nothing wrong in my life but someirritatinghow, i feel mad at the world. its like a disease and i sound like a complete idiot most of the time. i dont want this. what i want is to say happy things and post pictures even if it makes me look like a sappy gay faggot.

i know, Grey's (:

i finished watching the entire of Season4 and i have to say, even though there are only 10 episodes, to me it is by far the best season yet.
& right now, i want to be left alone.
all alone, except with you. bye.